will you ever learn - typecast

So, what's the point in all of this
When you will never change
The days have past
The weather's changed
Should I be sorry? Could I be sorry?

I did it all, all for you
Hoping you would see
Your eyes are dull, your hands are clenched
Are we ready? are we ready?

But you, you think about yourself
Only but yourself
But what about

Unlonely nights, romantic moments
The love, the love
what about them?
throw it all away

You know me well
You know it's wrong
Then what is it you feel?
You hide behind those perfect smiles
It won't fool me, 'cause you already did

I did it all, all for youHoping you would see
Your eyes are dull, your hands are clenched
Are we ready? are we ready?

But you, you think about yourself
Only but yourself
But what about

Unlonely nights, romantic moments
The love, the love
what about them?
throw it all away

The perfect dates, the sweetest kisses
The love, the love
What about them?
Throw it all away

tears

Each and every one of us needs, or has their own comfort zone. It might be a thing, or it might be someone we know we can't live without. But what if that someone breaks your heart.... what will become of your comfort zone?

Ever since it happened, tears have been my bestfriend, my partner, my teammate, my shoulder. It sounds kinda funny, but when you got to the point wherein you cannot take in the pain anymore, eventually, you'll break down and cry. Don't worry, tears aren't a sign of ones weakness, it shows that no matter how strong you are, you are just an ordinary person who gets hurt, and admits it when he's down.

When you feel like crying, go on. Never stop the tears from falling. It hurts more when you fight back the tears, the pain, the sorrow, instead of letting it flow and letting it out of your system. Think about it, each teardrop that falls from your eyes tells you that you'll go on, you can do it. Sooner or later, you can face the world and tell them that you've become stronger.

But you can't live life in tears. It's okay to cry for now. Eventually, you'll learn how to accept how things are, how it all changed, and you'll find yourself NOT crying anymore. But remember, when you've learned how to stop, make sure that you won't cry for the same reason again. What's the point of learning how to accept how things are if you'll just end up crying about it at the end? Show your strengths. Show him that you can live life without him. Believe me, it feels good!Ü

Operation: spill the beans

I asked a friend of mine to "talk" to m today. I wanted to know how he is -- since he's obviously not talking to me. They're actually talking right now. As I am on the verge of tears waiting on how their conversation went.

I gave her his YMid. Well, she didn't tell him to whom she got it. For sure, he wouldn't talk to her, and he would go ballistic if he finds out its me. As my friend keeps on talking -- more of "chatting" with him, I found him friendly. He was like M last 2004.. I miss him... ugh! I can't believe I'm gonna cry.. Obviously, he changed -- towards me. And, it hurts. Badly. I try not to cry. My sister is here. I can't risk it.

But you know what, as the night gets deeper, I realized that I still care for him. I realized, I should let go, or these feelings won't go away. I know, I kinda used my friend to know everything about him, is it bad? I don't know. Am I doing the right thing? I don't know.

It goes to show that when you love someone, no matter how hard it is, you will go out of your way, out of your league just to know if he's okay. You'll do whatever it takes just to know he's not in trouble, just to know how life's treating him. Will it do you any good? No. It'll only make the "hope", the "dreams" and the "wishes" grow. It'll only make the scar deeper than expected. It'll only hurt you more. These are the times when reality strikes you. When it tells you to face the facts and go on with life, even though you're alone. But hey, it'll make you even more independent, right? And that right person for you will come your way soon.

Broken promises and tears may seem to be sad. But as the sadness moves in, a new door for a new beginning slowly opens. Cheer up! Everything will be put in place. Wear that smile proud and as you move forward, never look back. Sometimes, looking back is what's preventing you from living life to the fullest!Ü