i miss you blog!

it's been awhile since i last posted. mga 5days ago lang naman.. haha! anyway, random things have been randomly swimming down my mind. haha!

i just came to my senses that everything has its own ending and sometimes, its not as "happy" as we want it to be... it can be about our relationships, friendships, love, or just life in general. but when you think about it, letting it all go is the only solution. Just by saying that, you know (every one of you knows) how hard letting go of something so special to you feels, right?

i admit, i may be foolish for posting tons of things about my "boy bud" and my ex (who i still love so much!). some of you might think it's pathetic. some of you are taking sides with me. but when you start to fill in to my shoes, you'd realize how hard it is. especially, if you have loved someone so true, and completely, and truly as much as i did.

some of my friends have read the entries in my blog. they say it's useless, and pointless to put things about the past here. but have you ever wondered what the reasons are for some of the entries of the bloggers around the world? especially those entries where you think is too personal for them. this blog has been my comfort zone since none of my friends are trying to listen to me, or be there for me at times when i need them the most. some of them are being sarcastic to me when i even try to bring the topic up! i just don't get it. how could you be sarcastic to your friend who needs comfort?

all my thoughts, my pain, sorrow, anger, and everything in between are in this blog. no one had the time to listen to it. this blog was all i got. i thought putting all my thoughts here would help me mend my broken heart. but no. until now, the hurt still resides in me. i know everything has its own ending. but why can't i find the ending of this phase? maybe i did. i just couldn't let it end. and i don't even know why.