run!

i'm gonna run! hehe.. i don't know why.. but i am serious.. though i'm pretty sure i'll lose.. T_T

i talked to mitch.. she made me read something.. i almost cried while i was reading it.. i found those words that i didn't, and I WILL NEVER want to hear from marty.. gawd.. sa ibang tao lang sinabi un.. pero i was reminded of him while i was reading it.. it hurts.. i'm crying.. right now.. it's just so unfortunate that he couldn't and will never read this.. ayoko na marinig pa lahat ng sasabihin niya pag nabasa niya ito.. alam ko namang mahabang homily about moving on lang un eh.. di niya kasi alam kung ano nararamdaman ko.. YES! i still don't know why he would give up.. eh kung ako kaya ang nag-give up sa kanya dati, di kaya siya magkakaganito!? palibhasa kasi, he knows that i never did, and i never will give him up.. f*ck! di niya alam kung gaano kasakit nararamdaman ko... :'(